Today I can see the sun, although I'm being blinded by the massive mounds of snow everywhere. Yet, I am grateful for a day of getting some outdoor time. You know, now that I have a dog, I get even more pissed at people who let their dogs run off leash in the city. Don't people WATCH "DOG WHISPERER" ? SO I end up having to defend my own little pooch from a charging dog off leash. Meh, it probably is because I haven't been able to make up my mind if I'm going to breed mine or not and therefore I haven't had him fixed yet. *sigh* AND I know that the puppy in him will finally start subsiding and I won't have as much fun any more. Selfish, I know.
Before the walk I spent at least 1/2 hour on Facebook chatting about a new baby about to be born in my circle of friends. Laughing at the e-cards being sent while she updates her status every few minutes with what's going on. Her hubby sending a last note " we're in for the long haul y'all" which apparently means being induced doesn't make it faster! I remember being induced, but I was two weeks late, according to the doctor's calculations, and after several episodes of running around the block, and a false alarm, they popped a pill under my upper lip. The worst part was soaking my baby's father when my water burst. See, I was sitting up to hold down the pain, and he was sitting in a chair in front of me. Poor guy. Even worse, a few hours later when the baby was wheeled away, I started scarfing down a plate of fried chicken right in front of him. I still remember the tired and whipped look on his face. He went home to rest. Any whoo, no word yet on that baby.
There is no way to deny the complete terror I lived in after my divorce. I was a spoiled young girl and believed our love was forever. I was a young mother. My son empowered me. He gave me purpose and inspiration. I'm still trying to understand how I went from the great MUSE of a man's life to a horrible disease. Every time I witness a child's birth, I know that couple is as happy as we were and it's bittersweet confusion. Still, happiness is contagious and I can't help jumping into the celebration with two people in love!
As if I didn't feel odd enough, my ex-boyfriend calls my roommate out to meet his new little son. The second child actually. Then, of course, I receive way too much information on my roommates return home.
Now I'm trying to gear my mind to do a little more on a website design so that I can get that up and running. I'm hoping I can be so very busy starting soon that I can get away from all this extra "stuff" I don't need! I bet I do a little video editing instead because that's more fun and I need some escape!
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