The March issue of "Rollingstone" with Shaun White on the cover is still gracing the top of my writing desk. He not only is HOT just to look at, but the very idea of all that raw energy he exudes is HOT too. I think I keep looking at the cover thinking how awesome sex would be with such a man, knowing full well that's why he's on the cover! To tantalize us!
Tomorrow is my birthday. Generally my birthday is MY day. I'm proud of MY day. It is the one time I receive the outpouring of attention I constantly crave. I would be going out tonight, except I've been sick this past week, and still a little pasty around the edges. So, it was a Peanut Buster parfait and chit chat on Facebook, a walk on the treadmill while thinking again about that weight I need to lose, a dip in the hot tub for fun and now blogging to you before searching for a movie to watch. But, birthdays are starting to come too quickly, and starting to bring a little fear with them. The fear is that I will not be able to complete the goals I have so burdened myself with. Rather, the expectations I have so burdened myself with.
I find myself thinking back to Robert Heinlein's character, Lazarus Long, who kept renewing his life and living it over and over and over......so he could experience all the things he wanted to. From the moment I've read those journals, I've wished I could live that much longer......too morbid? Perhaps, he did, after all, finally get tired of living, and all the renewing of his body actually began damaging it. I've been under the influence of way too much sci-fi lately. I know my internal clock is off. Mainly because I'm having to keep a schedule that my body just doesn't like. Up really early in the morning. BLAH.
I further corrupted myself with the ENTIRE series (ON DEMAND) of the "Spartacus: Blood and Sand" this week while blowing my nose and spacing out on cold medicine. But, I liked it. It was different, but I liked it. The added "soft porn" definitely nailed it. Lots of nakedness.
On the upbeat, I have been very fortunate to be socializing quite a bit more these days. I do, however, stay completely fascinated at how much humans can find to participate in. It is totally mind numbing for me to realize just how many events, promotions, fundraisers, backyard parties and stage performances I can choose from. It's like a retail store, a sort of Macy's of life.
For some 20+ years now my life has revolved and whirled like a mini Hollywood anyway. Or, perhaps a Harlequin Romance novel, or a daily soap opera. (I didn't plan it that way, it just evolved when I wasn't looking, honest).
Tomorrow is my birthday. Generally my birthday is MY day. I'm proud of MY day. It is the one time I receive the outpouring of attention I constantly crave. I would be going out tonight, except I've been sick this past week, and still a little pasty around the edges. So, it was a Peanut Buster parfait and chit chat on Facebook, a walk on the treadmill while thinking again about that weight I need to lose, a dip in the hot tub for fun and now blogging to you before searching for a movie to watch. But, birthdays are starting to come too quickly, and starting to bring a little fear with them. The fear is that I will not be able to complete the goals I have so burdened myself with. Rather, the expectations I have so burdened myself with.
I find myself thinking back to Robert Heinlein's character, Lazarus Long, who kept renewing his life and living it over and over and over......so he could experience all the things he wanted to. From the moment I've read those journals, I've wished I could live that much longer......too morbid? Perhaps, he did, after all, finally get tired of living, and all the renewing of his body actually began damaging it. I've been under the influence of way too much sci-fi lately. I know my internal clock is off. Mainly because I'm having to keep a schedule that my body just doesn't like. Up really early in the morning. BLAH.
I further corrupted myself with the ENTIRE series (ON DEMAND) of the "Spartacus: Blood and Sand" this week while blowing my nose and spacing out on cold medicine. But, I liked it. It was different, but I liked it. The added "soft porn" definitely nailed it. Lots of nakedness.
On the upbeat, I have been very fortunate to be socializing quite a bit more these days. I do, however, stay completely fascinated at how much humans can find to participate in. It is totally mind numbing for me to realize just how many events, promotions, fundraisers, backyard parties and stage performances I can choose from. It's like a retail store, a sort of Macy's of life.
For some 20+ years now my life has revolved and whirled like a mini Hollywood anyway. Or, perhaps a Harlequin Romance novel, or a daily soap opera. (I didn't plan it that way, it just evolved when I wasn't looking, honest).
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