It seems that bad bosses and bad environments are the norm these days. Just ask anyone. I hate contract work. Aside from the long hours, including overtime, and no benefits, the job inevitably comes to an end, and you have to say goodbye to a bunch of people who have pretended to be your best friend for a number of months, even though you always knew they weren't. The best you can hope for is maybe they liked you, maybe they will contact you again, or maybe they will remember your name when the next project comes up. In the meantime, you haven't seen or spoken to your real friends in those months nor have you been able to engage in anything creative because you're always sleeping during your "extra" time.
I was not prepared for the 5000 or so people that crowded the center for work. Desperate, angry and sometimes violent. They lied on their applications, cheated on the math tests, and came in groups to try and intimidate me. Some never made it through high school and some could barely speak English. I was depressed. Depressed at the state of this United States. Depressed at my own demise. Depressed that even if I did help these people, they would end up hating me anyway. I don't like chaos. If I can create order within the chaos, I can survive it. But, there has to be some goal to be made, some process to help reach that goal. I so miss my old steady and "permanent" job!
I wouldn't say I learned the lessons I wanted to learn, but I did learn some lessons! LOL. I will do what I need to do to bring in money, but I don't have to like it, not one little bit! For now, I've turned on the hot tub, and switched on the big screen to the Highlander Marathon on the Sci-Fi channel. I have some serious relaxing to do, as I intend to take pleasure in watching Adrian Paul kick some ass as Duncan McLeod!
I was not prepared for the 5000 or so people that crowded the center for work. Desperate, angry and sometimes violent. They lied on their applications, cheated on the math tests, and came in groups to try and intimidate me. Some never made it through high school and some could barely speak English. I was depressed. Depressed at the state of this United States. Depressed at my own demise. Depressed that even if I did help these people, they would end up hating me anyway. I don't like chaos. If I can create order within the chaos, I can survive it. But, there has to be some goal to be made, some process to help reach that goal. I so miss my old steady and "permanent" job!
I wouldn't say I learned the lessons I wanted to learn, but I did learn some lessons! LOL. I will do what I need to do to bring in money, but I don't have to like it, not one little bit! For now, I've turned on the hot tub, and switched on the big screen to the Highlander Marathon on the Sci-Fi channel. I have some serious relaxing to do, as I intend to take pleasure in watching Adrian Paul kick some ass as Duncan McLeod!
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