My Wolf Gets Me

Okay, so I was correct in my feeling that I could not impress the Marketing girl at that prestigious school. It was a long shot. I will have to admit I am not in the mood to try and please some arrogant Board of Directors at a rich kid school. I'm in the mood to go away and start all over. I need to be alone and just live and create. I am still considering my options though, because I can't decide whether to move away completely, or sneak somewhere out in the woods and just be a hermit for a year or two.

It would all be so much easier if I had made better choices. Now, I just wish I could go back to when he showed up outside my door in his little Porshe in the middle of the night, saying he was here to stay, and tell him he was crazy as hell ! I still wrestle with the back and forth guilt. I never should have, but I did! *sigh* I honestly don't know if he ever loved me anyway.
Time to look for a partner.

This is the weekend that the Health Care Bill is going to finally be voted on, and I'm terrified that I will have to learn how to function all over again, since Progressives will rule if it gets passed. Life is so annoying in how it flips us around from doctrine to doctrine, wildly adjusting to a new philosophy. I hate it. What makes the time I live in so special that I have to endure these upheavals? Take me back Calgon! (Of which I bought two boxes on special the other day and have been taking long hot baths hoping that I can relax and get some real sleep. So far, not a chance).

I've heard that people making $100,000 or more aren't even feeling the effects of this horrible economy. Don't I know that. Try to have a real conversation with someone like that. What Health Care Bill? He wants to do what? Naw, I think you're misinterpreting everything. How nice it would have been to be born with a silver spoon. Or, how nice it would be to have rich parents who are there when you really need them. Better yet,

how nice it would be if we had a world of basic equality, love and respect for one another and no one homeless or hungry. Instead of the pack of wolves that circle the camp every day.

Peace.